Deep Thoughts…
A blindingly dark shadow has fallen over my heart and consumes me as a whole. M heart is frozen, incapable of loving. The crashing waves capsize my heart and drag it to the bottom of an emotional frozen sea.

Thoughts of death breeze quickly in and out of my head; what if I die tomorrow? Will my soul find another body to inhabit and be doomed to repeat the same mistakes over and over? Or with the closing of my coffin with my spirit fade like the sweet smell of roses in rain?

Am I the only one who notices frozen tears in my eyes ready to fall, but are too shy to show I am a sensitive human with emotions? Slowly I sink inside myself, curled into a ball never to return as the same person I was before.


My soul slips into an unknown darkness that consumes me as a whole; but I am not whole. My heart is broken and lays crumbled at the bottom of my soul; but I have no soul, I gave it to you…

My heart has shattered into so may pieces, the amount of stars in the whole universe cannot compare, and yet though all the tiny cracks; shines a ray of hope and promise covered by a shroud of anger and hate. And with a kiss, I die…

…I feel the urge to stand on my desk and scream just the break the deafness that causes my ears to ring with whispers of the long forgotten and envious moon, but I will not scream, cannot…. my voice has been silenced do to meditation and lack of rest.