Current mood:

depressed

Why Me?
Yea happened to remember I had not written in a while.. since just before the baby was born it looks like. Well so far this is the month from pure hell. I got a great job in march, i was a receptionist for a state program that helps the disabled find their place in the work force. Well, the baby happened to get sick, the same week, that I drove to columbus to take the state civil service tests, and i had to take her to the er...well, that day, the temp agency called me to tell me, my assignment was ended due to, missing to many days...yea ok, the baby was running 104-110 all night, wasn't breathing all that well, and was basically a lump of goo in my arms...what would you have done! she could have died! omfg, compassion people! So there goes the income...right out the flipping window, then the bank called, told me that becasue of the negaive amount in our checking, they are going to close our account, and put us on the check monitoring system for 7 years...so guess what? I'll be cashing checks at Kroger for 7 years, cuz no bank in their right mind is going to touch us.

AND IT GETS BETTER!!

my kids are little adventerurs...so the go through EVERYTHING no exceptions! yea well, i got yelled at by our roommate, and by my husband...i was like gee thanks, add that on to all the stress i'm under, and it's really helping my depression...

why are men so insensitive? why is it that they need to find one thing and nit pick the fuck out it? I'm on the virge of a nervous break down, and all this shit everyone deals out to me is not in the least helping how i feel, about me, my family, and our lives...but you know...who the hell cares?! i mean there are A LOT of job oppertunites out there...yea right, let me see....nope none in at least 7 counties...

I just want to crawl in a hole and fade from the world...fade from memories...maybe if i just die everything will just go away...